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tragedy man
Posted on 2005.06.29 at 01:38
I've been gone for a long time. Pondering... thinking. I've been downright contemplative, I think. I've somehow missed many of the vicissitudes that have plagued me. Missed what I most needed to see and realizing that, couldn't forgive myself, and couldn't take other changes...

Unworthiness comes to mind, as a term for how I've felt for so long.

But now I've once again been betrayed. Or perhaps I, once more, was the perpetrator of this situation.

The hole in my heart where once she stood will be there... forever...

But I've suffered more war wounds than this. I've suffered, and maybe I've finally found a place that is worth defending.

I've been gone a long time. I'm sorry, to the people I feel responsible for and to. I'm sorry. I hope you will forgive.

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